It is weird.

    It has been long time, since the last time after finish reading a book, the first thing I want to to is jumping to my laptop, and start jotting down an entry about it.
     Yes, just like the title, it is weird, supper weird, I mean, everything is weird, my feeling, my emotion, my mind, my thoughts... everything is weird, since I cannot describe it, whether it is in a positive meaning or negative meaning, it's just... weird.
     Just like in a parallel universe, another me - but of course, a me-self as a writer, and one day he said: "Ok, I'm bored, let's write a book", and then it is sent to this universe, to fall into my hand. Yet, at first, I thought, this book, as well as the movie, is bullshit, is just some pieces of teenage craps, or somethings that made fangirl crying for. But I was wrong, and please receive my most sincere apology for it. I see nothing but... myself in the story. Yeah, you might say hm sure this book is the one that everyone can relate some part of their life to it, cuz it about the youth. But no, I mean, that is just EXACTLY me. There are many things that are told and I can imagine directly myself on it: the way that boy thought, some funny philosophies he came up to, some "dirty tricks", "strategy", "master plan" he tried, some emotions that he had been through, and his feeling for, even his reasoning process... and even some names, songs, events, quotes, characters... that I can refer to right away. Just like looking in the mirror, and see myself on another universe, doing things that surely I will do if I was him. Just like the main character is myself, multiply by 3 times of all things to be a literature figure.  I mean, not kinda similar, but it is like I am sitting there, writing the whole story, and add some seasoning to make it even better. Thank you, God, for letting me reading this, and I'm sure, sometimes later, I'll read it, again, and again, and again. It may not be the best one, may not be one of the classical writing to let people think of or discussing through decades, but for me, this one is the book in my "favorite shelf" that I will never forget.


             If there is such things as signals from the sky, I think I received it today. Thank you god, for all that happened . Now, I understood, I have more courage, more motivations, to believe in what I am doing right now. Thank you to let me know that it would be suck to give up, that no matter what will happen, I am having a nice youth, a meaningful one, one worth living for, worth fighting for.


AND THIS IS WHAT PEOPLE CALL... MOTIVATION!