Sometimes...

    people just want to write something, but they don't want to make it neat and nice, then they just throw out any idea that cross their mind, without any arrangement, fix or modify and it would be a shame to call that a real writing. Even when people are really happy and joyful, sadness can visit and knocking on the door. Things just stand there, right in front of you, but you can't say a words to make it yours. Cuz you know it's not the right time. And then you're disagree with yourself, try to keep it day by day. Even so, you're still don't know for sure how it's gonna be. Just like chasing pavements, to give up or keep chasing, even if it leads nowhere. Things are just important to you when you have feeling for them, and when you are not anymore, it's just simply doesn't matter to you. But what if they're so important that you don't dare to make a move? Oh please, I know I'm a coward, and I don't have the guts to make these kind of decisions. But people are all cowards, just in difference circumstances. And I know this kind of sadness will haunt me until the day I find out how to solve it, or will disappear but lead to another kind of sorrow. From a small but continuously to a big but periodically, I guess. But on the other hand, people can do good, or at their best capability when they're in drama, not when they're happy, or satisfied with the situation. So it's maybe a kind of motivation right now, a kind of drug that I can use for myself, but later maybe I won't need it anymore, someday I'll stop using it.
         After the trip to HN, I'm also learn that life is not like what some "Extraordinary wannabe person" say : "I just doing what i like". Sometimes you have to do what you really don't like, but you're still have to, this way or that way. Society is no the jungle, even in the jungle has its own rules. And you cannot just cross the line and walk away. And there are many things I've came up with between the difference between the way of living, though and behave of North side people and South side people. They're good comparison, I won't say which one is good and which one is bad, because they're both good and bad in some way. It's just an opportunity to let you get to know people better.
         Damn, how to get these feeling gone. Maybe... KEEP CALM AND READ THAI BOOK, CHINESE BOOK, HANG OUT OR SHOPPING