Sick and sad

     -When people are happy, even they're sick, they're still happy in another way. But when they're sad, their sickness just make things more and more awful. This morning I woke up and even couldn't swallow my gob. It's freaking annoy me, as you can't swallow something cuz it hurts you so bad, you have to spit it out. When you are sick but you have someone close to you, it's a happiness that you're still being cared, somebody will make lemonade for you, will cook porridge for you, will buy the foods that you like. And all you have to do is just lying there, and enjoy that favor. But when you're alone, it's totally another story. You have to cook by yourself, and the food did not tasty as usual. You also have to take class, which is quite unpleasant because the air conditioner at it to-the-max level, and outside is filled with sunshine and super heat. And when you lied alone at your boring room, shaking and moaning in the dark without anybody hearing it but yourself, somehow it's gonna make you cry. But of course, you won't cry, it's hard for you to shed a tear, since you're a boy and you have already grown up. Crying is just a metaphoric word to say. But I mean... you'll be sad, and reach very close to the max level of loneliness. I'm not complaining about it, since that's a normal thing to get used to, to be familiar with, but somehow right now I'm still not. A lil' weak, right? Yes, I'm weak, and I don't afraid to show it :). And it's also another bad time that a lot of bad things happen in a row. Haha, but btw these stuffs don't bother me so much. Maybe I'll lose a bit of time, money and efforts in the future for these problem. But it doesn't matter. Just something bad happened to my body made me feel sad.
     -One more week to the final exam day, and right now I look like a freakin Afghanistan Terrorist. Seriously, with all those beard and hair stuffs. Sometimes I just want to cut these off, because right now I'm also freakin disgust myself, but let's see if I could keep this til the coming home day, to scare the shit out of my mom and dad !! :))))))